I really never thought anything remotely near it could happen to me...
in fact right now I am scared to admit it.
Lots of thoughts run through my head...
Have I just not met anyone new for too long?
What is going on here!?!?!?
Why do I feel this way?
Is it because my heart is finally mended from things that happened long ago?
Am I setting myself up for disaster?
Regardless of the reasons, the feeling is real. It is a function of mind nonetheless. It is something I decide, ultimately. I decide what it is to be defined as. Would that be asking for too much magic out of life?
Am I really in control of something so enticing...
How can I be so strongly pulled towards someone I just met?
I'm worried I'm setting high expectations and I'll end up upset.
At the same time I'm so sure that everything will turn out just fine.
I'd just been thinking before I met her that- the only way... The only possible way I could see myself seeing someone for the next two years is if they fell under all of these conditions that could allow me to be successful in school and stay focused... along with all sorts of other demands... and... I MEET HER??? This person that I have never met before, but dreamed up... and how did I meet her? This is the first girl I have EVER approached truly feeling myself and confident at a club or party. I approached with no intention but to speak to her, and that I did. And you all who have met me know how strange a first encounter with me could be. And rather than epic fail and awkward conversation, it was amazing. I could hardly even believe she existed from the moment she said Hi back to me. In fact- I could hardly even believe the power she had over me from the moment our eyes met.
Surely, this is love at first sight.
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