but yea stupid me.
i actually got back with her
the regulars will know what im talking about.

so for the past like 2-3 weeks we've been talking again. still love each other. i mean looked like it was gonna work.

so about 4 days ago. she asks me, do i wanna be her boyfriend again.
me being the idiot i am says yes.
so well at first wasnt a mistake i was happy things were working...
now wtf do you know...so we were on the phone and shes like i need to talk to you bout something so i say go ahead i mean...your my girlfriend go for it.

what does she say. i dont really want a boyfriend right now.
like us being back was more a one day type thing

LIKE IM SORRY BUT WHAT THE FLYING FUCK?
so you can go 3 weeks telling me you love me. AND STILL tell me you love me. but you dont want a boyfriend right now?
like wtf together almost a year and just end it like that?
i mean we werent even fighting.

but yea stupid me. got back with her and thought it actually was gonna work, like she actually changed.
and YAY now i need to feel like shit again.
im so sick of this shit, like why the hell am i always so stupid?
why do i have such a weakness for this one girl.
i was finally starting to feel better. starting to let go. but no stupid me takes her back and now feel like shit again.

/rant

Hating you is a big word, thinking that what you did isn't smart, yes, very much so.
A girl I know is in the same situation (sort of) so I can sort of imagine how you feel, as for what to do about it, I have no idea to be honest. If you ever just want to rant, my MSN and AIM are in my profile.
Cheers

emotions are handled differently between the sexes. Typically men display their emotion less and because they do so it is perceived that are shallow in that dept. I also think men don't get the full range of emotions that women do (at least i don't)

Women seem to have a peculiar ability with their emotions that men do not have. They seem to be able to turn them on and off at will. i have observed this behavior numerous times with my wife her girlfriends and my in-laws. I do not know if this is a mental or biological mechanism but it does worry me at times.

As for practical advise: Turn your emotions into inspiration. If you write, draw, sing, compose, or string. take those feelings and turn them into something positive while distracting yourself. Many people will say distracting yourself isn't a healthy way to handle emotions but the truth is humans use distractions to cope with pretty much any uncomfortable situation. Time will give you the objectivity to handle those memories without the emotional content being so overwhelming.

Next time when she asks you out...tell her you need to think about it. Then replace her with a puppy!

All jokes aside...dude...just take a step back and enjoy the you time. Let her go do her thing and if it is meant to be it will end the way you want it. And, if it isn't meant to be then it will end the way you want it anyways because then you weren't meant for each other and the person you are meant to be with will come into your life.

totaly agree with Yaagob on this one...i left a few things one ur other post so i know whats going on...all i have to say is that we all learn from mistakes...ya u gave her another chance and she fucked up...her loss. Like Yaa said if its ment to be it will work itself out eventualy...who knows maybe 3 years down the line after alot of dating she will realize that u are ment for her and come cralling back...you never know what could happen till it does...all u CAN do it be prepared for what could happen (which in this case i see 2 main things and im sure u know what they are lol) and if she comes back great...actualy think about it...make sure she understands u wont stand for her bullshit anymore and whatnot before u even think about it...and if she doesnt come back...eventualy im sure u will find someone better out there (IMG:http://www.glowsticking.com/forums/style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) keep ur heart open try not to shut people out bc u dont wanna get hurt

pretty hard dude.
shes finally the first girl i really openned up to.
the first girl i fully trusted.

so yea i cant see my self trusting another girl now.

ya i know it is im just trying to help thats all...im sure its a touchy subject and whatnot and its hard to think of ever loving someone again

I totally feel you on this, dude. And I must: just give up the rationalization. This isn't math or physics. You cannot reason or explain your feelings/interactions with girls. It is something that I have learned to accept over time (through shit times or euphoria). Few things in life cause so much agony or joy as the female species can and it is a bit hilarious at times what we would do for a girl.

I was gonna give some advice but I forgot what I was gonna say. I'm too drunk for this shit right now. Lemme sober up and I'll get back to you. Sorry! =(

LMAOOOOOO
that gave me a nice laugh.
but ok.

and yea its tough man.

to Bbdude. yea i get what your saying
and yea i mean its really tough, like there's really no one that could replace what she means to me.
ive tried tlaking to other girls.
theres non like her. its from how unique she is...
and ok i wont lie. i know it may some what sound gay.
but shes a guy at heart, lol and thats what i love so much. like shes not a typical girl. shes very different she's the type to watch tones of guys shows. get intense with video games. watch sports and go nuts. like shes a very different girl. and i love it. plus we have so much in commen it would be hard to find someone like her

Well DJ man let me give you some advice, like most people here are saying, there isn't much you can do right now. People will ALWAYS have problems in their relationships whether they are big or small its going to be the samething. You both need to talk and work things out but from what you are telling me right now there isn't much you can do at this point. You need to give her time like she told you about "not wanting a bf right now" and you need to take time off as well. Yes, its difficult to not be able to spend time with her and show her how much you are interested in her. This is why you didn't really think about it and ended up saying yes to her when she asked you out again. Because you want to be able to have that FEELING again. To be able to BE with her, that significant other is just the best thing ever.

When someone or something breaks your heart, the only thing that can fix it is whatever broke it.

Of course after a long time and I mean LONG time your heart will heal up through similar experiences. Also finally realizing what's best for you, your friends, your family, whatever you love to do always helps you move on. It all depends on the situation and how you deal with your problems, most people have different ways of dealing with their problems.

Right now you just need to sit back and give her time, you must ALWAYS give girls time when they ask for it. If you keep trying to get a hold of her its only going to bother her and it will make things worse. For sure say hi every here and there just make sure you don't over do it. Women tend to get pretty annoyed easily when it comes to things like this. Just make sure you understand how she feels and what she needs right now so you can be there for her.

I promise you it will make things easier and better for the both of you.

Think of it this way, yes its hard and you don't know what to do but in the long run, it will be all worth it. You must ALWAYS be Optimistic and think of the future because that's where you are going next. Don't worry about now, worry about then.

hate is a very very extreme word, you're just one odd lil ducky

Okay, I am back.

Totally understandable. Been there, felt that.

So I am kind of torn on this issue. On one side, I feel that if she is this special to you, you should definitely make an effort to make things work out. Yet, on the other, it doesn't seem like you two are ready to go stable in a relationship. I would just say: make the effort, let her know explicitly what she means to you, and then see how things go. Ultimately, the success of a relationship falls upon how BOTH people feel, not just you. I cannot tell you how many times that I imagined a girl would be an awesome fit for me but she just didn't agree with my perception. In those cases, it wouldn't work anyway. Your girl has all these great traits and such, but ultimately one trait that's not optional but rather mandatory for success is her belief that you're right for her as well. Best wishes, man >_<