i've been thinking about it for a while - about half a year; but i've only thought about seriously changing my name for the past couple of weeks. i've been really thinking deep in my past after having talks about visiting the philippines again. life there was messed up. i was unhappy, unguided and misled. i have issues with moving on with some things there. "KniveS" was symbolic of that past. the reason why i changed it to "KniveZ" was because spelling my real name, Jeffer
zon, was a very common typo. Jefferzon and JefferSon are two different names. one letter makes all the difference. brit and bret, angel to angelo and etc. having to live with my name being spelled wrong over and over just made me decide to change it that way. anyway, [before i go way out of topic] i chose the name "knives" as a symbol of my past, a symbol of my roots. i have a really deep and emotional past - a very broken family, numerous family deaths, witnessing death, 3 life threatening encounters and many others, i haven't moved on and let it all just be buried in the past. changing my name / alias is like a big step for me to try and come to a resolve and let it all be just in the past but i will always be KniveZ. it will always be a part of me - my past.
okay, reason why i changed to Zodiac Serpent. born in the year of the serpent / snake. reading all those astrology crap and i saw a lot of those things come true to who i am - a lot of the positives and even the negative traits are true to me. so having to move on from knivez to zodiac serpent, it's pretty much my way of 'shedding my skin' (past) and focusing more on myself rather than dwelling in the past that i always look back on with regret and wishing to change a lot of things from it. now i'm turning my head back to where it should be looking - forward. keeping my life on track. i'm growing now. life's coming at me fast and i need to keep up with it, there's no room for crying over my past and i need to focus on what's going on in my life NOW. adapting to whatever life throws at me - like a snake. run my life the way i want it to be; not how others see it fit. i'm my own person and i'll shape my life how i see it should be. take no shit from no one and walk in my own pace.
i know it's going to take some time to get used to calling me as zodiac or zodiac serpent or by my name jeff so i will give it time. i will keep all the videos i had with the name KniveS, KniveZ and my emails and everything. but my future videos will appear as Zodiac Serpent. i'll give it time to settle.
a change, from KniveZ to This? why you ask?
Aug 20 2008, 02:01 AM
