ok some of you may have read my post made about this time last month, well it told of how me and my girlfriend kinda stopped talking...well how she stopped talking to me. Since then she started talking to me once, but then stopped again...well her sister and I talk alot, we are really good friends, well today we were randomly talking and discovered that my girlfriend has commitment issues, appearently when any of her relationships started getting serious she broke up with the person, well the first time she stopped talking to me she said that there was something wrong with her and that we would only be good friends never anything more, so I asked her if that means that she thinks we should take a break and she never replied back, but she never broke up, and she never changed her status on myspace or anything, [trust me if we would of broken up she would have changed it]. and then 3 weeks later we start talking like nothing happened, but then she just stopped talking after I asked her if she still wanted to go to holiday world, a plan we had for a couple of months...and I just don't know what to do, I seriously cannot imagine a life without her, everytime I imagine my future she is right there as my wife...and I think that since she didn't break up with me, she feels something too, I just don't know what I should do at this point, I love her more than anything, I would give up anything, even my eternal soul for her if I had to without a second thought, and it's just so saddening on my end, she allowed me to be truly happy, and I just want a way to get that back.

What she's given you is a dream, a possibility, a hope.

She can't take that away from you either, it is your right to dream what you want and of who you want. And the funny thing is it's not that she took the dream away from you- it's that you just don't see it happening.


I don't know. I realized my dreams are my dreams and I have them because I love them, and my reality is something different entirely. My dreams don't need to be possible all the time, or even real.
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I'm not suggesting being delusional, I'm just suggesting that if you understand that she is not in control of your wants and desires- rather, your wants and desires have selected HER, then your dreams will be yours again.

Wow...that was simply beautiful, and truly and deeply inspiring, you actually see what's happening to...but the only problem is that I want my wants and dreams to be for her, she is the person I fell in love with, I can't let anything happen to that, but after not talking, it seems that nothing is right without her with me. life just isn't how it's supposed to be, she is truly I believe my soulmate, she can pretty much read my mind as I can read hers, we understand eachother, which is why even though my wants and desires have selected HER so has my needs, it seems as though I can't function like before, everything is bland and so mundane.

Well anyways, we just broke up now, even though according to her she broke up with me a while ago, appearently without informing me, lol...well for some reason I am not even heartbroken like it was when she first stopped talking to me...we are still good friends, but she claims that she is "independant and can't be restricted", oh well, I'm just glad that I'm not taking this hard, so anyways, thank you everyone for helping me out

oh and she denies the fact that I could have possibly loved her because I had only known her for a year and a half and been friends for a year dating for 6 months...well anyways, She'll always be in my heart, but now as a friend, nothing more, but there may just be hope for the future.