Ok after first intake i blacked out for a few seconds
then i blinked again and i was in a new dimension of life.

i had a creature with me that led me through my experiences.
this creature looked like the aliens from signs.
except it was all white, well its head was white with snake like eyes. like they were hanging out on what looked like a snake and the cornea was a triangle instead of a circle like our eyes.
its body was clear with lighten up veins

also when i looked at my arms my veins were glowing. they were a bright white light, and my fingers were glowing even more. it almost seemed as if my fingers were flash lights and my veins had light going through them.

so this creature took me to 4 places.
first it took me to a desert where the sky was green, there was no sun
and all around was intense blue square patterns. and yellow triangles with an eye in the middle.

then to a new place, in this place the creature wasnt with me. but it was a small room
the floor ceiling and walls were the same patterns blue boxes but with green boxes in the middle and of course the triangles.
now the difference was that i was spinning...well i saw myself and it was as if i was spinning.

the next place was a open field where the grass was again snake like things coming up from the ground with eyes at the tips. the creature was with me again

the last place was just the sky. we were just flying and it was all green with the blue boxes again.


now in these places i was thinking deeply about many different things
here is what i thought of/came to conclude

you cant have a glass half full or half empty. until it is filled. so you need to fill it all the way then drink half. then it will be half empty or full which ever you want to say.

which led me to thinking, you cant live half your life until you live your whole life.
you cant have half of soemthing that was never full.

next was the quote from one of my favourite artist. the quote i love and always think of, Will you control your life? Or will your life control you?
i came to consider this,
it is a system that requires both.
your life controls you, because you would not exist without your life, but you control your life, because your life would be nothing without you.
you need both to be in control, each is in control of one another.

the next thing i thought about was.
which is most important to the body?
the heart, lungs or brain?
i came to realize all 3 are dependent on one another.
your lungs bring oxygen to your body. your heart pumps that oxygen to all the parts that need it, espeically the brain. BUT the brain controls each thing. so without the brain they will not work. each depends on the other.

the next thing i came to realize as well is the idea, if god created man who created god?
well god is believed to create man, BUT only in those that believe in god. God doesnt exist everywhere.
god only exist in those that believe.

i also came to realize that sex, is a form of sharing fluids and pleasure with a partner. this is why it doesnt ahve to be in a relationship. in a relationship what matters is the soul and heart being shared between two. this is all that matters in a relationship

i also came to realize, that what we see every day isnt really real. it is just a cover up for what life really is. Life only exist in the pineal gland, and the brain. this is the true reality, this is where we all connect to what life is. this is where i realized there is no race religion or any of the shit that seperates us. this is where, the paths we walk dont matter. we each may walk our own paths, but that doenst matter in the real dimension of life. each path walked leads to the same place, death, and death is a check point in our paths. each path leads to this check point. at this point we then chose another path.

i have also come to realize that in order for us to live our life, we need to break free from what we think we know.

i also started to think of the physics idea, what happens when an immovable object meets an unstoppable force? my theory is this, the object is destroyed and the force is diminished.


the best way to explain this experience is it is the most intense thing possible.
it has made me appriciate this life we all have much much more. it made me realize life is short.
what we think is real isnt there.

it made me realize that in order to be free, we need to break free from the control of the chemicals in us.

we are all being controlled. when we really are free, we dont know it.
when we sleep that is one time we are absolutely FREE
there is no control by ANYONE else when we are there. we are in complete control.
in our sleep everything we experience is real, it is the true dimension of life. this is all that matters.